cold chicago, & i defend next week

finally, that dreaded and wonderful news has come: i defend my thesis next wednesday, and now i must prepare for the day. make all the changes necessary on the text, make sure graphs and formatting is correct, turn it into my advisor on Sunday so that he can have enough time to read it and drill me on it. I'm afraid & I'm grateful. One of my friends said it was a blessing to have it come so unexpectedly. I won't have too much time to dwell on it. Get it over with. Finally, GET IT OVER WITH. Get all the paperwork in, throw it up, vomit it: so sick of it.

I dream of Wednesday night. I dream of having some extra time on my hands and sleeping, and writing, and visiting family & friends. I dream of taking a long break... I had no summer this summer. I dream that after I turn this in, a small vacation will begin for me.